Getting ready to be a father

My Baby Girl is almost  3 weeks old. Still she is so fragile i m afraid to hold her freely.
i m not very sure whether I love her so much or protective or worried. of cause  I am worried that something could happen to her.
Sometime during night she starts crying which rather annoying in the first few days but now I would do anything to make her not to cry.
I was so afraid in first 4 days when she turned yellow because of lack of milk, she was crying cos she was hungry!!! there we couldn't do anything most importantly we didn't know. even though i directly didn't' expres my feelings, it sometimes shocks me to remember that she was crying because of hunger so we decided to give formula ( milk)  
No she is growing up unfortunately i m not there to see them, when ever i go home there would be big differences, in between i don't know what happend, i hope some day she would understand & forgive me for i m not being there for her all the time she needs me.
Next thing comes to my mind are my parents how could it have been at that time troubles i might have caused?

if some one askes me how do i feel about being a father yet i wouldn't say it is wonderful it is actually terrible but it drives you with a vast experience & a very good memory.